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Nggak kerasa udah beberapa bulan berganti status jadi bukan mahasiswa. Banyak hal yang berubah, tapi yang paling kerasa adalah soal belajar. Pertanyaannya adalah setelah lulus, apa yang gua pelajari? Hmm… mungkin pertama, I know better than dream . Gua nggak tau kalimat itu benar secara tata bahasa atau enggak, make sense atau enggak. Maksud gua adalah udah bukan masanya lagi buat meromantisasi mimpi atau cita-cita. Gua udah mulai sadar kalo gua nggak bisa mencapai apa-apa kalo gua aja bahkan nggak beranjak satu langkah pun dari “tempat tidur” gua.   Gua merasa kalimat motivasi you can be anything you want tanpa dibarengi dengan persyaratan-persyaratan yang harusnya dipenuhi lebih dulu itu adalah omong kosong yang digembar-gemborkan. Tapi gua juga paham kalo bertindak itu nggak mudah. Apalagi gua tau persis bahwa realita nggak semanis ekspektasi. Kedua, gua semakin sadar kalo gua nggak berhak sama sekali buat iri sama orang lain. Nggak berhak marah berlebihan sama “keti...

When you’re overwhelmed with your thoughts, the  skepticism , those unnecessary stupid things that pollute your brain, please give yourself a pause. Take a break from all those BS (like) things. Maybe you’re just tired. Those things maybe good for you when you’re in fit condition. When you’re on the verge of doing things that you know are bad for you, please remember that those are alarm for you to clear your heart and mind. Please understand that you’re in need of spiritual dose. Those are signs that your mentality is thirsty. Take a very deep breath. Go outside. Do things. When you think you’ve done many things, feel tired physically and mentally, and think you deserved excessive resting time, then it’s time to evaluate everything. Time to clean your intentions and refresh your vision. When you’re in the state of being the lowest being ever exists, please don’t let yourself become much lower than it already is.   Please, save yours...

What kind of act do you think is the most rewarded in this century? It's the act of conformity.  Doing what others do. Thinking what others think. Following social rules mindlessly.  Don't ever think of asking why. Don't even bother to understand.  It is the way it is. Shut up and be pretty. So when someone start asking, suddenly everybody else feel offended.  When someone start thinking, suddenly everybody else show huge outrage. When someone start trying, suddenly everybody else has the urge to push them down. Then they say, "there's no way you could do what your heart longing to do, when I couldn't.  There's no way you could build your soul, when I've sold my own long time ago." . So much of being free individuals .

Kalau kata seorang senior, kehidupan kampus itu menyenangkan sampe sebelum skripsi menghadang. Well, that's true. I mean, life as a university student is already demanding before 'skripsi' , but 'skripsi' is definitely a different realm. The pressure is real. Especially when you do your 'skripsi' outside your campus; at an institution or a real office, the pressure is much more huge (at least in my case).You have to do good, to do right, on time, and discipline. And at the same time you are worrying about your future. About your dream, about reality, and maybe about your fear. And now, be prepared to read my long rant about my messy thought on life after university. Tentang Paska Kampus Jadi, sebenernya kegalauan soal paska kampus udah mulai ada sejak tahun lalu, tepatnya semester 6 akhir. Kegalauan akan milih kerja atau lanjut kuliah S2. Pertanyaan selanjutnya adalah kalau milih kerja ataupun kuliah, mau di mana, bagaimana cara dapetinnya, dan baga...